December 2010
26 posts
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you stoopid. I like you. I love you.
gaaah
I’m finally getting sick. This whole time I haven’t gotten sick. Even with all the stress. And now I’m coasting and I feel like I can’t breathe. My ears won’t stop freaking out. I just want to go see Black Swan. YSPLZ.
This song makes me cry.
no excuses.
I’m sorry.
2010
We both cried while I was shaking from the cold. I kept smoking and you kept apologizing. Merry Christmas.
and just when I thought things couldn't get any...
My father finds it acceptable to open up gifts with my sister and brother when my other sister and I are not there. But don’t worry, my little brother called to tell me about how they were doing it. I’m not even sure how to react to this anymore. Does this mean I should just move far, far away? Should I finally cut ties? As much heartache as they all cause me, I feel that when...
human emotions
I’m a fuck up. I fuck everything up all the time. I wish I knew what to do. I wish I could ask someone what to do. Everyone is bias or just can’t understand what is going on in my mind. I was so unfair to you. I always got mad at you about the little things but at the end of the night I felt so at home with you. I just can’t even handle thinking about how I will go to bed alone...
90dh
Keep you up all night if I try to remain calm How can they ask why I feel so angry Do you see my problem if I never explain it But then there’s you asking me how long Say something, it’s taken me so long
ddtfns
I wish I could lose control for just two seconds. Maybe then I’d feel the blood pumping through my body.
oh, I forgot to tell you...
I had a dream about an orange spider. It burned my skin. Remember?
just so the world is clear
I really hate staring at you. It makes my face hot. Please hate staring at me too for the same reason. New Years will kill me.
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I talk about stupid shit on TUMBLR
Things have changed. And I’m doing everything for the wrong reasons. I can’t speak because I am afraid of what I’d say. I’m afraid of how you would react. I wish to do so many things but I feel trapped inside of my own body.
December 18
I feel like complete trash. The dirty, sticky gum underneath your boot. I just want to melt into my carpet and let it take over my soul.
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I’m sorry I was a child. I’m sorry I was rude. But understand what it was like. I didn’t know the real story. Also, I’m not her. I never will be. That is why I get so mad when you compare me to her. She destroyed your soul. I wish to rebuild it. I understand that you want to be happy and that is why I will support you in any decision you make or will make. Just don’t...
fuck your excuses
You still don’t live here. You are not allowed to call the shots. You are always rude to me and to my friends. GET THE FUCK OVER IT. You’re no better than anyone else. And I will pick my friends over you. Either grow the fuck up or get the fuck out. I can’t keep making excuses for your actions.
IHATETHEHOLIDAYS
I always have the worst of luck around these times. And what’s even worse and that people don’t even care. Everyone keeps telling me that it will be okay and that they’ll help me. Doubtful. You’re not in my situation and you’re NOT even TRYING to help me. I’m stuck here pissed and annoyed with a broken car and a shitty father. IHATETHEHOLIDAYS.
WEEDS
I NEED TO GET LAID.